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Kelsey Parker has said she will ‘never be OK’ following the death of her husband Tom Parker.
The Wanted singer died in March at the age of 33, one year and a half after being diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumour.
Kelsey, who shares children Aurelia, three, and Bodhi, two, with Parker, is exploring bereavement and grief in ITVBe documentary Kelsey Parker: Life After Tom.
On Thursday’s instalment of the moving series, Kelsey, 32, spoke about how she was coping and how she has changed since Parker’s death.
She said: ‘Because I’m putting on a brave face people think I’m OK. Of course, I’m not OK. I’m never going to be OK, am I? I’m never going to be the Kelsey I was two years ago and that’s just it.
‘I’m never going to be that person again because my life has changed so dramatically and I’ve been through the biggest thing. The trauma I’ve suffered is beyond anything anyone could ever imagine.’
Kelsey Parker said her life had ‘changed so dramatically’ (Picture: ITV)
In a previous episode of Life After Tom, Kelsey was brought to tears after opening a gift and letter sent from Parker’s record company.
Kelsey opened a set of gold discs of The Wanted’s new version of Gold Forever, which they released earlier this year after Parker died.
The commemorative discs had been sent to her and her two children, however they reduced her to tears as she read the record company’s letter to the camera.
Kelsey said people assumed she was ‘OK’ because of putting on a ‘brave face’ (Picture: ITV)
Kelsey explained: ‘They did a new version of Gold Forever and it sold five million copies, and I still can’t listen to it.’
Sobbing as she read out the letter, she emotionally shared: ‘”Thank you for sharing him. Tom will remain in our hearts and our memories.” See, it’s horrible reading it.’
She continued: ‘It’s their saddest song, really. And it’s really weird because when you actually listen to Tom’s music, the songs are actually really sad.
Kelsey Parker explores grief in the ITV doc following the death of husband Parker (Picture: Instagram)
‘Tom’s opening line is “Say my name like it’s the last time, live today like it’s the last night” and he opens the song with that.
‘Do you know what, I’ve never, ever recognised it before but then, once he died, I realised how sad they were.
‘I actually can’t believe the pain in the lyrics that Tom sings.
Kelsey has two children with the late singer, daughter Aurelia and son Bodhi (Picture: Kelsey Parker/Instagram)
‘That’s really hit me and now I think I struggle to listen to his music even more.’
Speaking about the discs, Kelsey added that she wanted her children to take them when they ‘fly the nest’.
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‘It’s not the norm. When people die, other kids don’t get a gold record that says their dad’s name and that he sold five million copies.’
Kelsey Parker: Life After Tom is available to stream on ITV
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